Well, food and exercise wise.
6:00: Wake Up
6:01: Be out of bed and on the toilet (lol :p)
6:10: Drink a liter of water
6:15: Sit down for morning yoga
7:00: Cycle for 30 minutes
7:30: Drink more water, Eat breakfast take vitamins
8:00: do something productive, or go to school
9:00: keep doing something productive
10:00: Go outside
12:00: Have lunch
1:00: Do more productive things
4:00: Be done with another liter of water
5:30: Eat dinner
7:00: Work out
8:00: Drink a liter of water
10:00: be asleep
If I could do that (pretty much) everyday, I’d achieve what I’ve been after for years. I’ve been working working for so long and so wrong. So here are my goals, even healthier than ever. Along with a good mindset, I’ll get it, and keep it.
I’ve had dreadlocks for a week now, and I fall deeper in love every day.
They’ve relaxed a lot and gotten loser at the roots, which is a healthy sign. I haven’t noticed any shrinkage other than the initial stuff.
They still itch quite a bit and the wispy ends keep trying to tangle themselves, but the eventual extensions will remedy that.
I’ve showered twice now and used dreadlocks shampoo both times. One day I had to take a shower in the evening, and my hair was still moist when I woke up the next morning! I’ve never been a morning shower person, but night showers aren’t gonna fly anymore unless I blow dry, and I really don’t like using heat. Each time I shower they get a lot loser at the roots, which was a huge relief after my first sleepless sore night. I also palm roll them every two days, because I’d like them to be a little thicker rather than thinner.
I haven’t gotten any negative reviews about them yet, though I wear them in a bun everyday since they’re so short right now, and it’s hard to tell I have dreads from the front.
Well it happened! I’m so happy with the beginning of my dread journey. They don’t look how I want them to look yet, but part of the process is accepting and working the many phases of dreads.
They’re currently very sore,stiff, and tight. Also they are extremely rough, I’m not sure if that’s going to stay or not, I don’t really mind. The ends are wispy and the actual dreads aren’t very long, but I’m getting extensions soon, so they’ll be longer and fall more like I envisioned (I hope!)
I’m so excited to have finally jumped in and done it. This is the beginning of a new chapter.
Tomorrow is a big day for a lot of things. One of them being immediate change, and another one being moving even further toward my eventual evolution.
Tomorrow I get dreadlocks. 9 hours of my life, in a windowless shop. They do have two guinea pigs though, which I absolutely love and look very much forward to holding. Now before I go on, I’d like to say that I’m very aware of the fact that the outside doesn’t have to match the inside, and what you look like is only .1% of who you are, but…
My dreadlocks are a huge milestone in my forward positive migration. I’m learning myself now more consistently than ever. While physically, I’ve recently been at a slight standstill, my mindset gets clearer and healthier every day. To me the dreads are going to be a test of patience, confidence, and self growth all together. Mostly patience due to the fact that I know I’m prone to having hair meltdowns when I make hair changes, and dreadlocks are a MAJOR hair change. I want to get better about my quick snaps of panic and anxiety. All I want is to be chill, chill like my people. I over think everything. The confidence factor is finding confidence from within rather than only the exterior. There’s a good chance that I won’t be as pretty with dreadlocks. It’s hard to write since I want everything to be great and fun and pretty, but I don’t have the thickest hair and I could very well regret a lack luster mane. In which case, I’d have to relight a confidence from inside myself to carry my ugly hair around with my head held high. Another thing is the fact that people are going to judge me. A LOT. My conservative town isn’t gonna give me a second look after they see my hair, on the bright side though, that weeds out the sum of my city and filters the positive tribe into my life. All of the people close to me know and support me in my dreadlock decision, and that’s what matters to me.
I’m going to not only change my hair, but implement some new thinking into my life. I’m a very “start date” kind of person. I have to pick a day or time and then do something then. The right now random day approach messes with my brain. (another thing I’m working on) but nonetheless, I’d fancy adding another aspect of chill to my mind. It’s vague, but that’s because not even I know exactly what it is yet.
I’m going to jump back on the clean eating train. I’ve definitely been slacking, but I feel gross, my skin is angry, and I quite frankly want to lose weight. I’ll elaborate on my diet in another post.
I feel like I’m figuring stuff out. It’ll be funny looking back at this in the future, knowing the outcome.
I went on my first diet when I was in like 3rd grade, even though I wasn’t “fat”(155lbs) until a month ago, but I never liked my body. Even as far back as preschool I wanted certain jeans because they made me look “cool”. My real issues started Freshman year when I actually started trying to lose weight for more than a week or an afternoon. I started the myfitnesspal app, and ended up being glued to it for almost 3 years. I didn’t know how to eat correctly and completely messed up my metabolism by eating only 800 calories a day, until I couldn’t take it anymore and binged. At that point I had never weighed over 125, but even at 125 I felt like a whale, oh boy would I find out otherwise, since now it’s a goal of mine to get there again. I lost 10 pounds in three weeks and then ballooned up once again. Continue reading “It’ll All Fall Into Place”
I made a video about the things I won’t be able to do when I have dreads 🙂